With Gratitude

During this last 10 months I have experienced every possible emotion possible but fear was one of my most overwhelming emotions by far.

During this time I have also experienced a lot of love, warmth, acts of kindness and messages of encouragement from my friends and family - which has been my second most overwhelming feeling, touching my heart deeply and profoundly - something I haven't experienced in my lifetime.

Combined together this brought me HOPE. None of us could have guessed the outcome of this experience, although my prognosis was always good, no one was promising us anything. We could only have hoped for the complete pathological resolution that was mine.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart to you my cheerleaders and supporters - my family and I have always felt loved and supported like a big warm hug around us from all of you. There are no words big, deep or meaningful enough to show our gratitude.

An angel here, an angel there,
I'm surrounded by angels everywhere.
When I'm in the middle of a terrible storm
They come with their candles to keep me warm.
An angel to comfort, an angel to guide,
An angel to fill that dark hole inside.
An angel to cry on, an angel who cares,
I'm surrounded by angels, everywhere.
The angels who reach out when times are rough
Who'll listen to my heartache
and all kinds of stuff
Bright in the sunshine and in dark of night
The angels surround me with comforting light.
I guess God is busy and can't come on down
To give me a smile and take care of my frown
So He sent a few angels to brighten my day
And help to carry my burdens away.
So thank you, dear angels, more than you'll know
For watering the happiness and making it grow!

One of my Angels of course was my Mum who has flown down and been with us through each treatment and looking after the kids with John each time. I look forward to future visits and time together that aren't treatment related. She was getting them moving each morning for me (like all of us mothers know how hard that is) throughout treatment. But Mum worked like a machine keeping our little household running despite my absence.

From Kamilla 'you are loved'Angel


Flowers from Carolyn and magazine with shoe porn supplement

Flowers from Lynda, sweet lemon cake and a scented soy candle