The Big Little Reveal

An appointment with the nurse post op meant the big little reveal. Not quite ready for my Playboy centerfold, but a happy girl I am.

The bandages came off to reveal little pink nipples – Yay. I'm wearing plastic shields to protect them for the next 6 weeks. A bit like these but clear plastic not gold like hers.........

Although the protectors feel more like this to me.....

Don't come too close to me, or I'll poke your eye out, ha, ha.

And they are pretty bloody good, if I can say so myself.

Now I’m not being greedy and wanting a complete body retrofit, I am just aiming to get back to a little bit normal.  You know, when you catch yourself in the mirror, your body doesn’t look like its been in a Frankenstein movie and it looks somewhat normal ‘with nothing to see here’ kind of thing.

When I came out of surgery, I was pretty happy and so thankful he could even me out a bit. With one being 2 sizes bigger than the other, bra wearing and even the way that top necklines sat on my body has been challenging – I know, first world problems.  

Some people don’t have the option of reconstruction once that cancer has been cut out, or some cant have the cancer cut out at all, so I do think myself as ‘lucky’, but the effect that these small changes have made to my mood has been the most surprising.

I don’t need an Elle MacPherson body, just a somewhat ‘normal’ body without the dressing challenges. Is that too much to ask for?

I have been seeing a psyche and managing my 'monitoring'. I have to find a balance between remaining vigilant, but living my life without fear.  This is my goal when seeing her. I still have unexplained pain in my body and have just had a pelvic scan to check things out - maybe its just age, even though I always think that I'm much younger than I am.

Here's to the next 6 weeks of healing :)