Discharge day is here

Tuesday

So I think I have a day for discharge being this Thursday. Feeling a little nervous about it.

I've been having needles 3 times a day - heparin. It's supposed to stop blood clots. they are painful until - a lovely nurse called Jennifer held my leg and didn't let go straight away. I didn't get the bee sting feeling I usually do with her administering it. No pain at all - it goes to show that it's the level of care from the nurses that makes the difference.

The food isn't great - today at lunch I snuck down to the coffee shop for some sushi rolls. It was a party in my mouth with so much of the food devoid of flavour here.

I have started to think about things again and the reason that I'm here has raised its' ugly head again. It's always lurking in the depths of me somewhere and then different triggers bring it forward again. You also inadvertently hear the sad stories around here and that feeling of terror of learning the diagnosis - it all that comes back to me.

But I have to stay positive and let the body heal, taking each milestone at a time. Look forward to my positive future rather than 'what if' scenarios that may never happen. And trust that I have gone through this to prevent recurrence. I probably need to do more in my life to reduce my recurrence risk as well.

I've finally worked out my painkiller intolerance. Oxytocin via a drip causes nausea and dizziness, voltaren I seem to tolerate, panadol is ok, taigin is okay but causes some drowsiness and constipation, they gave me dexomethosone to sort out my dizziness so that improved. Everyone has sent beautiful wishes on Facebook which make me cry when I read them.

Wednesday
Last night my babies and John came up to visit me. Andrés kept cuddling and kissing me, then started crying when he was leaving. I just wanted to cuddle him and keep him with me :( he was sad that he also forgot a drawing he did for me. John was going to scan it and send it through to me.

This morning, my plastic surgeon came in and gave me great news that the heparin injections 3/per day are stopping, and some not so good news, I'm going to a new one per day except I have to inject it myself once per day for 2 weeks!!!! Be careful what you wish for people!!!! There I was complaining.

He says it might be overkill, but he's being cautious as the vein he is used is much bigger than the other one and he needs the blood to be thin to prevent any problems. I wonder if it's contributing to my light headedness. Possibly going home tomorrow, with 1 drain left to take home. So hopefully the second last drain will come out today with no consequence and all will go to plan tomorrow and I get to sleep in my bed tomorrow night.