18 Days Post

Day 18 has come and I'm getting better - but not quick enough for me.

I've got things to do and getting frustrated sitting around all of the time. So I've signed up to do a course, and looking forward to fixing this surgery so I look somewhat normal and driving again.

Today I saw the plastic surgeon, I have been a little down about the result of this surgery. My chest feels like I've got some type of tight bandage wrapped around my chest and it's as hard as a rock. One girl likened it to it feeling like an amputated leg stump sitting on your chest - it truly does feel that weird after the softness of your natural self. Not to mention the lack of symmetry and puckering and that it feels like the tissue is bulging and about to spread into my neck region. Then there's the issue of my back flap. Something I never considered prior to taking the 2 glute flaps for the implant, where the 2 scars cross there is a puffy section that looks and feels weird in my clothes. Anyway hurrah, it's all fixable and he says with very minor surgeries. To quote him '60 seconds to fix the back flap problem'. The question is how many more? The reason I chose this method was to reduce the amount of surgeries in the long term (implants need to be changed every 10-15 years). Anyway, I'll see what he has to say to that question.....

A few days after arriving home, I got the most excellent news from my beautiful breast surgeon that there was no cancer in this mastectomy - yay!!!! That was exciting and expected, so glad it all went to plan.

Mum has been here helping me with the kids, cooking and housework - she is my guardian angel - thanks Mum. John has been ferrying the kids around as well as Heidi backing up with drop offs. It's hard to not do the things I normally do, but doing more as I get my energy back. Grateful for being so supported and loved - thank you :)

Halloween has just been and gone.....I did consider using my drain full of blood as a prop for a costume, very creepy. Since I have to tow it around with me every where I go, it would have been a perfect Dracula prop but it might have scared some kids so I reconsidered. I dressed as Daphne from Scooby Doo and off we went to Heidi's for a creepy dinner and Trick or Treating around their neighbourhood. They have it set up so that you only go to houses with decorations and leave the others alone. At least people can choose to be involved or not. Mind you, I just sat in the house, while the fathers took the kids around the neighbourhood :) The kids had a ball and it was good to have an 'outing' outside of these 4 walls within some other 4 walls.

I must say I'm going a little bit crazy stuck here. At least I have started my Christmas shopping.