Crazy itchy fun

26 May

I'm sitting in the office, minding my own business when all of a sudden I am in a severe itchy state. My hands and feet are bright red and blotchy and the itching is getting worse and I'm going crazy - much to the amusement of my work colleagues. I've got my hands in the freezer, which I'd only just got my head out of after a prickly, hot flush! I start to feel a little bit overwhelmed and call my GP. She suggested getting my hands on some antihistamine as soon as I can and call back if things don't settle down. Luckily for John's (my boss) hay fever/sinus he has some zirtec in the office. After taking that, within 20 minutes things are feeling calmer and the itchiness has reduced to a dull buzzing. So this happens exactly 24 hours since my zoladex implant.

Man, I also have bad headaches from this implant which settles down after a week or so - coffee seems to sort it out :) this has got me thinking it's not the 'normal' I was hoping to return to after cancer. With the psychological stuff still hanging around I don't want any more 'treatment' and my body never seems to agree with drugs. I'd be a bad druggie!!! Ha, ha. Whenever I seem to take something and I read the side effects, I feel like my name is printed in the 'acute' side effects section. And the doctors deny what I'm experiencing because it's not common., just common with Kym.

I've been on the forums Reclaim your Curves and having dinner with the Boob Club girls. It's funny how they make this cancer thing feel very 'normal' because there are sooooo many of them. While the diagnosis was the scariest thing I've had to experience you eventually realise, as your specific diagnosis and the gradual success results of the treatment show you that it's not a death sentence. There's just that little thought in the back of your head whether they got it all, and fear of recurrence which raises its ugly head from time to time, but mostly you don't think about it.

Back to the forums, I realise that every person is so different and it's in the differences that are really important. A person who says they aren't allowed to have a reconstruction after radio for at least a year, whereas I had a reconstruction 5 weeks post radiation. The difference is that I had chemo and radio first, not mastectomy. If you have a mastectomy first, you are left flat chested with a horizontal scar and little skin left. Then they need to stretch the skin using expanders that they fill every day with saline until your skin is stretched to the size you want. Whereas mine was skin sparing, meaning they kept the pouch after removing the contents and made it fit my transplanted arteries and muscle. But maybe I couldn't have had that if I had immflamatory breast cancer where it effects the skin - there are so many different scenarios it's difficult to compare one persons situation to another.

So in light of my itchy party, I have an appointment with my gyno to book in my oophalectomy - ? Something like that - ovaries and tubes removed so NO MORE ZOLADEX IMPLANT. this should happen in the next few weeks.